It's been a while...

After a few people asked me if I ever planned to blog again, I figured I should probably check in (especially since my last post was so negative). My friends were beginning to worry if I had given up. Truth be told, it was touch-and-go there for a while... but I had accomplished too much to let it all slip away (luckily I realized this before I was at my original starting point).

So, an update... after I left Sean and started on my own things got pretty rough. I had trouble motivating myself and I was not as strict as I needed to be. I lost more ground, and began to feel sorry for myself. And while I am truly happy for everyone else's successes, reading about them made me feel even more like a failure... so I stopped. I stopped blogging, stopped going to the gym, stopped paying attention to what I was eating. Naturally, I backslid further which made me feel pretty lousy...

In mid-June, I found a new trainer. Her name is Rebekah and she works at my gym. There has been a period of adjustment (her style is very different than Sean's), but working with her has at least got me back on the path. I am getting myself to the gym more consistently, and slowly getting the nutrition down again, too. It's a little humbling that I can't lift as much as I used to, but then again, I think being pushed too hard was what caused some of my injuries and my failure. I know it's going to take time, but I have hope that I can once again achieve my goals.

Anyway, Friday is my first fitness assessment since coming back to training. I am not sure that I have made much progress, but I am at peace with whatever the results may be. I plan to chalk it up to experience and keep going...

Well, that's all for now... Happy Wednesday!

LP