Thursday, October 30, 2008

Time to be selfish...

The last 2 weeks have been overwhelmingly rough... Working 14 days straight is tiring at any time, but 14 days of staying really late and having to look over everyone's work because you can't trust that things are being done correctly is pure torture. Last night was the first night that I got more that 5 hours of sleep since I started this stretch (I almost always get at least 7 or 8). And yesterday, I lost it. I was at my wit's end and got pushed just a little too far. It got to be so bad that I couldn't even keep it together at work; I must have cried at least 3 times. Not cool -- not cool at all.

I'm doing the best I can and I hope people know that. But I feel like I'm being pulled in 500 directions and I can't take it anymore. Something has to change and NOW. It's time for me to take care of myself so that I can better take care of everybody else.

I have 3 more days to go before I get a couple of days off... I look forward to a little rest.

Take care,


Nancy said...

So sorry you are having a rough two weeks. If it is any consolation, I lose it at least once a day when I'm with my kids. Sometimes the constant noise and the constant questions, one tearing up one room, the other killing the's just too much. I hope you are able to figure out a way to quickly re-center yourself and get back at doing the work you truly love so much. Good luck girlie!

Lucky Mom said...

Yup, break downs are common ...14 days of straight working are enough to put anyone over the edge! Remember that people will always try and get you to do things for them. It is incredibly hard to say no and not feel bad about it but you need to try and do what is important to you and rely on others to do what they need to do. Hang in there. You are worth it.